I always had this image in my head of watching a morning sunrise with somebody I loved and having this perfect, ideal, and romantic moment. You know with arms around each other, kisses under the morning sun, and falling even deeper in love. But that is not reality.
David and I woke up early today and made it to the beach by 6 am. We immediately noticed the cold humid air and the freezing ocean wind. We snuggled up in our blanket meant for a twin bed and as you might have read yesterday, David is a big guy…so sharing a twin sized blanket didn’t help much. Our noses were running and snot was everywhere. Romance was out the window. Such is life.
Despite the cold air and small blankets the moment the sun came up all the uncomfortableness was forgotten and we ran out closer to the ocean shore. The way the birds lined with clouds hiding the sun was majestic. It made me realize how small life is. Here is this larger then life Sun clothing the naked ocean and here I am, a 24 year old female working at a retail store. Granted I love my job but all these questions of “Who am I?” and “Who do I want to become?” came rushing to my mind.
I realized I want to be brave, trusting, and a person who makes a difference. But, what does that look like? How do I get there from here?
We all have dreams and too often we let them die or hide behind the business of life. Growing up I always wanted to be a writer. I wanted to be somebody who could tell stories both fictional and factional. I have journals and poem books that go all the way back to grade school. I even wrote this one liner in kindergarten or first grade “I like apples because they are red. I hate carrots even though they are orange and orange is my favorite color.” That is a horrible poem but it was the beginning of me.
Somewhere along the line I let that part of me die and I recently made the choice to revive myself.
I want to say thank you for those that have been following my blog! It means so much to me so please keep reading and sharing. I also challenge you to revive a part of yourself that you have lost or hidden.